Am i allowing myself to be controlled ?

Well, my friend, as hard as it seems, all is not hopeless. Your mother is right that your problems will follow you wherever you go. They certainly will and it is better to stay where you are for now and learn what it is you need to do in order to move on with your life. When you have a better grasp of your mental issues you will then be able to take what you have learned with you and go wherever you want to go to start over. This is in preparation for this move you want so badly and it really is something you will benefit greatly from. Get all you can from your therapy because there will be times in the future you will draw from what you are learning now. Do not feel like you are in captivity. You are well on your way to total freedom. I am very excited for you in all of this for it will help you move closer to achieving your goals in life. This is actually good news. Keep up the good work, my friend!